Cassandra Complex

You believe the world is burning
because the shade dances
around your casting shadow
bleeding what is real
into the reels of your home movies.

Old photographs
pictures drawn
where you clearly see the lead snaps
or the ink run thin
is where your finger follows through
from one center
to another labyrinth
you get swallowed
in.

Your nail scratches
the top soil
of my brain matter
digging in
and feeling for reason
if memory served right
i wouldnt be this raw
untamed
like water moving over the ice.
i refuse my prison
of rooms with broken lights
trying to read the writing
on the walls.
waking up lonely
because youre the only one
who knows
what comes of it.

you saw the world burn
without a casting shadow
and no one believed you
as you dined on the endings
of long stories
put to rest
in the authors coffin.

only in the dreams
you die in.

American Journal - Vol III - The Visionary

What happened to the times
where we stayed up all night
chain smoking and drinking beer
just kicking back
talking to the swamps
about everything.

How it feels
to reminisce
about past times
coming through the glass
projecting images
frozen in time
bodies in still posed
the way a finger sliding over my chest
as i killed the lights
while it snowed heavy
in the living room
full of kids
with no where better to be.

The music still echos down the hall
now pattered with the feet of small animals
who have become conversation artists
and make the rainy days never lonely.
A bicycle that carries me farther then
a father ever did
when i was too fucked up.
Hanging on lamp posts
spotting for cops
while demons escape me
in my afternoon adventures
up the broken steps
to a temple where no one remembers
your name
and its okay that way.
Because when i go back down
i wont ever come back
and the treasure will curse me
like a pocket watch
that knew when you were gonna die.

and you regretted it
every day the sun burned
your leather face
through thick trees and humid breathes
exhaling copper flavored gasps
of used up air.

The bench makes a home for hours
of blood given to forget how it felt
and why you cant stop running
even if it doesnt get you anywhere.
its okay
because the records
plays on and on
and the old faces wont ever go away
but one day that old promise kept by
an unfriendly watch
will make you cash in the chips
and pay the tab
for things you can never take back.

The Apology

The blinded horse
heads for new pastures
beyond the blighted landscape
there is a dream
of green and colors ive never seen.

I hold my breath as i take each step
closer to the edge of a canyon
between unfathomable space.
Is this what ive been searching for?
Is this where the promise land is?

The summer
turns to winter
and back again
holding my hand
against my head
wiping the sweat
wiping the tears i hide
from the city evil doers.
The blood stains across the carpet
covered with cigarette burns
and jesus blood pouring from gaping mouth
splashing patterns ive never seen before.

I am the holy one.
I dont bare grudges
or hate the ones who hate me.
I live for tomorrow
fighting through the night
listening to the same songs
over and over
hummed by the girl
with her hands on my reigns .

It rains for days
watching the humidity dry to the glass
fogging the exterior.
I dont exist for a little bit
as the smoke pours out of my burning attic.
I am eternally greatful
for the good times
and the bad ones.

I am the man from nowhere
with a name thats only been said
by the luckiest gods.
And they know i forgive you
for being who you are.
Loving is unconditional
even when you sleep in.
even when you're alone.
even when its too late.
Lucky shoes
keep the faith.

im sorry.

Deeper

Thrashed through
the black rip tide.
Water filled lungs
have half gargled
responses buried deep
in my crystal psyche.

Golden gate
closed pride.
razor teeth
slide over the bars
looking for entry
looking for anything.
to stab deep,
the afflicted hope.

I've turned invisible
to the surrounding city.
Buried in the dirt
with arms wrapped across
the lost treasure of a forgotten
empire.

The sun never makes it
this deep.
The smoke fills,
The hand clutches
and closes.
Filled with timer sand
from ill spent nights
holding your head
or fucking the dead.

a promise is argumentative
Backbone evolution
digressed with the invention
of the high heel stiletto
through eyes wide open

i can see the light.

Cold Sound

Bloodless Sucker
in the mud.
Heavy rain
Heavy handed
holding fire
to keep the darkness
from closing in.

Reach from the sheets
of cold rivers
chalice cover hands
drink from the challis
of life
looking for meaning...

Im sorry
it tastes so bitter
the poison running
down
your faded face
as the shock
of
how empty it sounds
moving through you.

The curse of mortal moments
where you block the sun
with your thumb
and you let bolts from heaven
crush your spine
as the wolves leave the forest
with the smell
of rotting flesh
fueling a appetite.
--
Im sorry its a hard pill
that takes you far from home
and leaves you in an alley at six years old
with all locked doors
and a man who knows
your father is getting high in the attic
and your all alone.

A gypsy kiss
blows the mist off the
dusted table covered with relics
of different gods,
As she tooled away at bones an gems
speaking in undertones
i saw the light leave her eyes.
She whispers
stories of old glory
one of a kind,
losing the light.

Drifting for days.
weathering the storm
clinging to the ground
and fighting the monolith.

This was heavy shit.
bone fingers
grinding across the surface
of the
drinks knocked
in teeth
swallowing slow
and take it for what it is.

Because i cant call god
and i cant fucking move the sun
and i cant fucking turn out the lights
in your scary head
and i cant fix the hole
in the earth
you leave
everytime you go
kamikaze.
Godzilla is not impressed.

Bike day.

The gentle rain
looks like background static
living for today
haunted by the spirits
of last night.

Straight arrows
shatter in half
through eyes wide open
watching the sun disappear
behind the grey sheets
and break the atmosphere.

The lights burn out
blowing off steam
blood left
across the city
from leaps of faith
and a fucked up crank

Cigarette phantom
smokestack stand in
leading the only friend i know
home.
how it feels to truly care
about something other than yourself
that doesn't sink into a vein
or have you living
in a grave made for two.

The devils lettuce
brings visions
of old paths i could have taken.
Breaking down trains
of thought that
I dont want to know anything about.

God grant me peace
in the form of park benches
and the red sunsets.
living the dream
and never giving in

Kill the lights.

Stepping Stone bridges

You attempt
to inject substance
to fill the cracks
from crystal
bouncing off the porous ivory exterior

staying up for days
just fucking
and calling home
to hear the footsteps
haunt through
the oak floor
up the telephone cord
and out the skylight
you created in your ceiling
with a shotgun.
i just need space

Your orbit decays
like Challenger 7
the day it should have slept in.
The way it feels
to catch a breath
and have your lungs collapse
from a coal mining dynamite misfortune.

Now your just talking sparkling diamonds
instead of bullshit
and heads through walls
or drooling poison all over upturned zippers.
with wet panties in a wasteland of letters i wrote
to myself about how i wanted to find meaning

in
writing
all these
words down.

licked stamps
pressed against foreheads
if the only thing
that scares you is dying alone
then take a long nap on a train
headed up the coast
and every lighthouse
will remind you of how it felt
to lose your way.

white heels.

A parasite
gliding across
bare bones.
fingers reaching for muscle
thats ended
like your original thoughts.

Time warp
over and over
jigsaw sessions
throwing shapes at the wall
breathing heavy
holding myself
to comfort the emerging ghost.

Bleeding to feel real
afraid of dying
because you might miss one minute
of your never ending movie
With the diamond sun
and the statues of gods crying
coveting your deathbed
rolling over and over
putting bags over your head
fucking spiritual...
being choked by dream catchers.

there is no salvation
in the blackhole city
Just long goodbyes
and deep breathing
when you find out

this is the end.

Another year im not dead

Another year of getting told how
to live off the land
by the wolves and thunder gods.
Mother nature
and her helping hands
around my throat.

choking on the forever smoke
of dreams that burn like city churches
in the days of yore.

Youre one of those people
who know me better than
i know myself
living in shattered mirrors
with an attic full of bat shit.
You were crazy like the bible pages
we made into paper airplanes
and smashed into lego buldings.

With furiocity in each step
we crushed the land
never giving a fuck
that tomorrow might be
the last day we ever talk

we were already extinct.
dinosaur bones
grinding against wet panties.
clutching crosses
glowing in the darkness
xrays from my
kitty of the month calandar
shower us in a way
that we melt

and our hearts just so happened to clash
like a comet
on the night we met.
it was flint striking
in a blackout room.
creating what sounded like beats
that kept going on
and on
and on.
and on.
and on.
and on.
and on.
and
off.

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Next Weeks Episode
Killer iceage faggots #23